Sex Diaries: “ I’m a cam girl but sex is not a priority in my personal life ”

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As a single mom, I really have a hard time finding a job that fits my one year old daughter. I left college with a 2.1 degree in law and thought I was created for life. But there weren’t many jobs and the competition was fierce – I didn’t have enough experience to do the interviews. So I ended up doing bar and waitresses. Then I found out I was pregnant. The Pacotes LiveCamLink make it easy to find your favorite cam girl.

Once I had my daughter, the part-time jobs I was doing no longer worked. They might ask for 15 hours a week but then force you to be totally flexible and that just isn’t possible when you’re alone with a young child. I could have put her in childcare, but it would have cost me £ 250 per week on the shifts they offered – leaving me between £ 50 and £ 60. I really struggled in terms of money.

Then I read a magazine article about being a cam model, how much money this girl was making – and that sounded good. I’ve always been a pretty sexual person but without much sex life because I don’t have the time. I thought: working with the camera sounds like fun and if it doesn’t work, it doesn’t.

I started four months ago and now when my one year old goes to bed I’m going to get ready and be online for nine and a half hours. Men contact me through a video messaging platform – they can see me but I can’t see them. Sometimes, if they’re alone, they just want to chat; other times they want me to take my clothes off, use toys, dance, all kinds of things. It’s a conversation about what they’re looking for and if you’re happy to be doing it. I usually log off around one in the morning.

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Men pay for my services by the minute. It starts with a group rate where I will talk to three or four people at the same time, but then individuals can choose to pay the higher rate and take me to a private session. In the group there is usually a lot of chatter. Someone may ask: are you into this? Domination is something that also poses a lot of questions to me.

“The last time I had sex in real life was about three months ago – I rarely have a childless night.

I am rarely approached by men when I am away. Maybe they feel shy (they’re not shy in front of the camera). The last time I had sex in real life was about three months ago – I rarely get a childless night out and when I do I’m more interested in meeting up with friends around. a glass. I’m not into dating apps either – I’ve used them in the past and hated them. In fact, I found that there were more idiots on the apps than on the camera. At least with that we all know what they want – cam men don’t pretend to want a commitment.

When I go on cam, I have a different character. I’m actually a very shy person and suffer from social anxiety, but on the camera I’m playing it’s not my real personality. I don’t have a problem selling my sexuality as long as I’m comfortable, but there are quite a few things I won’t do on camera – I’m vanilla compared to others. I’m not really the type to get into more outrageous demands. I also never meet face to face, while other girls offer to meet regularly with their clients and earn more.

I normally work four or five nights a week. Some nights are busy and I can make between £ 50 and £ 100, or up to £ 250 on Saturdays. It’s good to be at home near my daughter. But there are nights when I won’t win anything. Building your business takes time and I still have a lot to learn.

Only my best friend knows that I do – my family and others in my life don’t. Some of them would be unhappy, so it’s easier not to share them. In the end, if they found out, no one could blame my motives. I don’t want to go looking for money, this is not the life I want. I was able to start saving for a deposit for a house. Hopefully this time next year we will buy rather than rent. And it’s not something that I plan to do forever.

As told to Sophie Gallagher

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